This is how I am feeling these days. Wiped. Drained. Exhausted. Burned out. Tired. You get it, right?
Maybe it is the 100+ degree weather we have in AZ for MONTHS on end this time of year.
Maybe it is living in this tiny apartment day in and day out with 2 small kids. Thank God we are MOVING soon. Can't wait to have more space.
Maybe it is that 4 weeks off from work was just not quite enough this year. School is about to start again and we, as teachers, have to come back a few weeks earlier than the students. And in virtual teaching job, we do NOT get the whole summer, just 4 weeks.
Maybe it is the endless doctor appointments I feel like our lives are consumed with.
Maybe it is that I have no idea how I am going to work with 2 kids home this year. The Superhero will be in pre-school, but it is only 1/2 days 4x per week. With the Princess and her ITP, I just have a hard time sending her to daycare. Plus the cost of daycare adds up. I will probably have to take it one week at a time. I am hoping to put her in at least 3-4 days per week for the first month or so of the school year. This would be a huge help to me and she would have a great time. I know the daycare will take great care of her, I would still be nervous though.
Maybe it is that my husband works SEVEN days per week. Weekdays at one job and the weekends at another. He is home for a few hours each day. And that is all. We miss having him home. But, for now, this is how it is going to continue.
Maybe it is that I almost never sleep through a night without a crying 2 year old joining me in my bed. She has NEVER slept through the night more than 10 times in her whole life and I am WORN OUT.
Not to mention the other kiddo with T1 Diabetes and it's constant care. Fortunately my awesome husband takes the night shift on this one.
Maybe it is a combination of EVERYHING.
Whatever it is, I am hoping to be "normal" again soon. I am usually the one who sees positive in everything negative. And it is true, there are positive things that can be seen from all of the above, but all I see today is gray clouds. I know they will go away at some point, but right now, I am just WIPED.
*Disclaimer: I am a mom of a T1 Diabetic child and a child with ITP/Asthma/Dysphagia. I am NOT a doctor. I just play one in real life. Please do not take anything in this post or any other post on this blog as medical advice. If you have questions or concerns of your own, please seek advice from your doctor.*